There is a sense of romance in the idea that God is the "big great if". Not knowing for sure. Not being able to prove, beyond the shadow of a doubt...to touch, see, feel, hear. Recognizing the limits of reason, the senses, yettrusting. It is the essence of faith, believing without seeing. Like on Polar express, "believing is NOT seeing", in a way. For to see, would take faith out of the equation.

"God assumed from the beginning that the wise of the world would view Christians as fools ... and he has not been disappointed."
-Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia on encouraging Christians to be unashamed of their faith.

this thought needs to be developed a bit more but to get the post-it of my desk...here it is in its raw form...
one of the reasons we need to be in the Word is, we are the problem. We tend to see it as: there is a problem, I need to find, develop, manufacture a solution. No we/I/you ARE the problem, so the answer is not going to be found "within" myself, yourself, ourselves. We NEED God's Word for guidance, for truth, for direction. The problem is me.

kay, a few things...first, had to call 911 tonight...@ 11:00 @ the church. We were just finishing up playing soccer (me and the el charro guys) when the fire alarm starts going off...my first thought was that someone earlier today thought they had smelled smoke in the kitchen...bad memories of my 2 house fires made me twitch a little. It ended up being one of the guys from El CHarro who didn't know what the little white lever on the little red box with the little words "fire alarm" meant. Curious, he pulled it. I was still in the gym goofing around. Eventually we figured it out, I called 911 and told them not to come and figured out to turn the alarm off. Interesting.

my cool aluminum chair broke tonight.. bummer. fun was very drama-ish tonight...may have to nip it in the bud...numbers rocked though. only one injury. not feeling well. gnight

having problems posting today for some reason...anyway...here is my post for the day:


Me: put your coat on before you go outside
Levi: I don't need to...I have three shirts on.
me: okay

I need to eat at the schools more...specifically I need to eat at Utown...haven't been there for a while...sorry hillary and Holly. You still rock...latro z out

alright already, I still live...I am just devoting amost all my online time to developing the website...ccc.youthsite.org for those interested. I lead 2nd service music the next 2 Sundays...should be fun but I am pretty nervous. God still rocks, the door still knocks and no stones for me thanks
Z is out...